Can't nobody change me <3
i don’t want to go back to school on monday infact i don’t want to go back ever, i hate everyone and i just want to lay in bed all day and not have anything to worry about
If you cared about me and was “scared to lose me” like you say you are, then why are you acting like this? We fight ONE time and everything changes. You can say whatever the fuck you want but when its my turn, Im always wrong. Fuck. You’re so strong headed that you never ever ever let me win a fight. I seriously have to say sorry for things that I shouldn’t be sorry for. I do that constantly. Its driving me crazy. Yeah, I love you sooo incredibly much but Im starting to think that you aren’t right for me. You used to make me so happy but now all you been doing is making me cry. I just want things to go back to how they were. I lost you to someone the first time and then while you guys were together, me and you were doing things behind her back. Don’t you think I have a reason to be insecure? No, cause you just think you’re right all the time. Our fight a couple nights ago, you made me feel like I was always desperate for you. Yeah, Im needing to be with you but don’t try to put me in the friendzone all of a sudden. And don’t forget, you’re the one that led me on to believe that this was going to happen again. You’re the most confusing person ever. And I wish I could say this to your face, but you would just fight back or just ignore me like how you have been lately. Fuck. I love you sooo much but I can tell, you don’t care. I guess Im just too much for you. What was I thinking? We don’t belong together. This is soooo wrong. But more than anything, I just wanna be with you and hold you and just be able to do what I want to you without your “boundaries”. I love you but you aren’t putting in the effort I need, so why should I even try anymore? I wanna say that I’m done with you but I’ve said that too many times already. I seriously don’t know whats gonna happen next. Especially since this girl is tryna hit you up. I don’t know what the deal is between you and her but I’m still insecure. I know her from past experiences and I’m not even sure what you guys do together. Today you may have lied to me. She posted a picture and where was her “cousin”? Not in the picture. She was hanging on to you like nothing. Like I said, I’m still insecure but I have a reason to be insecure. What’s gonna happen to us now? We end things? It’s just like going through our break up all over again. I’m tired of this. You walk all over me, give me no reassurance, ignore me during any disagreement, don’t listen to what I have to say and just don’t even wanna see me. I’m kinda done playing your games. Im over this bullshit. I wanna be happy but you aren’t even wanting to do that, therefore, you don’t care. What do I do now? I know I don’t deserve this shit from you after everything we’ve been through. I do everything I can to make you happy but I guess that itself will never be enough for you. Im just tired. I’m not putting in any effort unless you are. You wanna be with her? Go. You wanna be with other people? Go. You wanna just let me go after everything we’ve been through? Go. Im done playing your games. Im done. I love you but you don’t love me as much as you say you do. So I don’t think I can do this anymore. Hopefully me and you can talk this out tonight, cause if not, Im ending things completely with you.
- Did you fall asleep?
- Did I make your day or something?
- Did I say something fucked up?
- Are you thinking of what to say?
- Did I make you upset?
- Are you talking to someone else?
- Do I bore you?
And that’s only with the first 10 min when you don’t reply
Now imagine that shit going on for hours when you don’t text back at all
we don’t get to choose who we fall for. They may mistreat us, ignore us or hurt us, but we stay with them. Why? It’s not because we’re stupid or we enjoy getting hurt, It’s because we can see the good in them, it’s because despite all the arguments, they are the ones who make us feel a certain way that no one else can & we value that feeling, & because our brains won’t allow them to leave our minds, & our hearts won’t allow them to leave our lives.